I've talked about my experiences with sexual abuse as a child and teenager in prior posts, but I've never spoken about what those experiences taught me and how it shaped a major part of my life. If you haven't read or caught up on prior posts, I'll give a quick summary of those instances. From … Continue reading Real Talk [Trigger Warning]
Alright, so here's what's been going on in Ashley Land. Pulmonology: MCTD has further progressed and as a result, I now have lung involvement. I went through Pulmonary function testing and it showed that I have a decreased ability to diffuse carbon monoxide into my blood stream. Diseases that cause this issue are COPD, Emphysema, … Continue reading The Low Down
Overwhelmed. Semi-inspired. Exhausted. In need of emotional purging. There's much to discuss, but I've been secretive because so much is still unexplained and unanswered, that I don't want to alarm anyone. I will however, be throwing myself back into writing and the blog, as a very much needed distraction. I'll be posting at some point … Continue reading Hanging On…Barely
I haven’t felt this broken in a long time. I haven’t felt this alone in a long time. I’ve never hated and resented my body more than I have the last month. Quarantine is hard in everybody and the effects it has on me are no greater than anyone else’s, but this feels like a … Continue reading Carelessness and Vulnerability
Just a [ ] tiny post. When I left off, I had a pending stress echo, more medication changes, and a Pulmonology appointment. Stress echo came back normal. Sit a tiny valve leak but it's no worse than last year. Pulmonology appointment was good but concerning. I really like this doctor. She was kind and … Continue reading I lied
Since I'm basically on house arrest now, no excuse for me to wait 3 months to write a post. Not tonight though, lord not tonight. Tomorrow.
A new year and a new set of issues. It's been a difficult few weeks both physically and emotionally. Physically, my Cardiology appointment didn't go as planned. I thought that it would go as it has the last two years, but if course, I as wrong. Rather than getting an echo and being on my … Continue reading New Year, New Problems